About Me

I am from Idaho and am 29 years old. I receive SSI (supplemental security income).

I do not work because I get panic attacks often in public and social situations. I have fibromyalgia and ankylosing spondilytis. I thought I had a handle on my illness until in February I started falling asleep everywhere I went. In June i was diagnosed with sleep apnea and asthma. I had some stressful events happen in August to the point I had a breakdown. August 24th I tried to end my life. Thank goodness I survived. I got another chance and not everyone does. I do not drive because being behind the wheel causes me to go into a panic attack.

I have gained a lot of weight during this depression phase. I feel very ashamed of how I look. Even my family is making comments and is worried about me.

I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. And fear I may never have kids, so try to help out kids as much as I can.

Other than health problems. I love to sew and am trying to start my own business to supplement income and hopefully find a way one day to get off SSI. I have extreme guilt of the assistance like medicaid that I receive so usually I don't spend much of my "income" on me but on others. Which I now realized has hurt me a bit since I found myself with the weight gain and my Mom finally came to my home and said "let's get on the computer and order you pants, you need them Amanda".