I am a burned out, overwhelmed, exhausted single mother of 3 boys
with special needs (ADHD, OCD, anxiety disorder, severe learning
disabilities & mental-retardation). My youngest (who is now 18
but operates at the mental capacity of a 12 year old) no longer
lives at home. Over the past few months, I have noticed my son
become increasingly withdrawn from life. He calls me in the middle
of the night in tears talking about how he can't deal with life
anymore & how he just wants it to all end. His suicidal
tendencies have worsened dramatically in the past couple of months
& I am an emotional wreck.
Currently, I work full-time, but my income is low. My own financial
picture is a complete mess. My ex & I used to run a landscaping
business, but lost everything when he fell ill with cancer (I also
lost my beautiful sister to cancer at the same time my ex was
fighting his own battle). Between that, my son, my ill health &
my financial issues, I feel as if I am on the verge of a nervous
break-down. It seems that all I do lately is cry.
I have an older truck that has not been working for almost a year.
I had the truck looked at by 3 different companies & the
average repair cost for it would be close to $2,000. It needs a new
rear-end, a new battery, new tires & some other small stuff
(which I don't understand). I desperately need my truck fixed so
that I can go see my son. It is killing me that I can't get to him
when he needs me (especially with the late night calls when he is
emotionally distraught). I can't even explain how it feels when
your child is talking suicide & you have no way to get to them.
It is completely breaking my heart.
If anyone would be kind enough to give me a hand, big or small, it
would mean the world to me.
Thank You & God Bless